Hadley wasn't feeling good at all last week, she had a super high temperature and wanted me to hold her all the time. This week she is feeling so much better and is back giving me her cheesy grin, she's so cute!
So for the past month or so every time we drive past a cemetery Spencer tells me it's where him and Sydney live. At first I thought what on earth are you talking about but then he kept saying it all the time, especially when we would pass the little Lincoln cemetery. He started saying it when pass the main cemetery in town too so I asked him why he said that. I told him that is where dead people go and I don't want him to die. He never really had any good answers, he would just say that him and Syd get bad guys there. I don't think I've ever even taken him to a cemetery before, I think the only time he might have gone was with my Dad in England but I'm not even sure he went.
Anyway yesterday we were taking Steve back to work and we drove by the main cemetery and he said it again! Then he was saying that it was a different one that him and Syd lived at. Then he told us that he lived there with the shiny guy, Heavenly Father. Steve and I looked at each other like, WHAT??? Spencer then corrected himself and said it was actually Jesus which still totally freaked me out. It was already making me feel nervous him talking about living in a cemetery but this made it worse!
I already worry so much about my kids like we all do so when they say things like this is makes it worse! My Mom has lost 2 of her children, I wouldn't know what to do if I lost any of mine. I love my kids so much, they may drive me nuts at times but truthfully I wouldn't have it any other way.
We did question Spencer a bunch but he never gave a great answer. The only comforting thing he said is that it was when I was in Nanny's belly. He's only 3 so for him to say that is beyond what he knows, I think. Anyway it gave me some comfort because I thought, well maybe he's remembering when he was in Heaven. Also you're not really with Jesus is the spirit world are you? Anyway that's what I'm telling myself because it has freaked me out a little, especially the whole shiny person part. Oh kids, they say the craziest things!!!
